there are people who possess a healthy dose of ego, self-love and confidence, and then there are people who appear to be confident but do not actually think very highly of themselves.
the latter group of people usually have low self-esteem and can be rather insecure about themselves, and it shows in the things they do. the most telling sign being their covert attempts to seek validation and support from anyone who is willing to give it–in other words, their confidence feeds on the praise of others.
when Confident Person says, “i’m the best”, they believe in what they have proclaimed (i.e. that they are the best), regardless of what everybody else thinks. they don’t actually have to say it out, because they don’t seek validation, but sometimes they say it anyway, just to piss people off if merely in jest. these are the people who can laugh at themselves and have mastered the art of self-deprecating humour. these are also the people who, after a really embarrassing fall, stand up and laugh along with everyone else.
when Insecure Person says, “i’m the best”, they are unsure if they really are the best, and hope that others would agree, if only so that they can feel better about themselves. or they do the opposite and put themselves down in feigned humility, when they are really just fishing for compliments.
actually, the preceding paragraphs’ verbosity is just a prelude to this: i am the best.
muahahaha.
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it was raining so heavily today (i heard there’d be a typhoon tomorrow?) so i decided to cab to work, and i met a really cute lady driver. she was so chatty and cheerful and adorable, and i was so glad i decided to take a taxi because talking to her really made my day.
so far i have never had any bad experiences with taxi drivers here in korea, well except for this once when i went to the supermarket with lx and her mum. we decided to take a taxi home after shopping as we were carrying quite a bit of stuff, so we hopped on a cab, i told the driver our destination (about 5 min away), and he replied with a hint of sarcasm and annoyance, “그렇게 멀리 가세요?” (“you’re going so far ah?”)
to that, i deliberately replied in an upbeat and cheerful tone, “yup!” which i think annoyed him more. he didn’t say anything to that but you could just feel the daggers from him man. heh heh. in the end i still tipped him 1,000 won after deliberating over whether or not i should, but then i thought what the heck, there’s no reason for me to break my habit even if he did have a lousy attitude.
