i had planned to stay in singapore for a bit longer, like say maybe 1 or 2 years more, but something happened a few days ago that has pushed me to seriously consider leaving again.

ever had it happen to you where you keep helping someone, and not only do they not appreciate or recognise your efforts, they turn around and accuse you of not wanting to help just because you took a little longer to do something? yeah.

who has been helping out all these months, designing and printing stuff? you say her two daughters are not helping her; fair enough, i can step in. but don’t you come and accuse me of not wanting to help when i had actually started on the thing you wanted me to do. i only didn’t finish it in time because i was too bloody tired and fell asleep halfway.

my effing fault?!

over one small thing you scold me early in the morning and ruined my whole day.

i wash my hands of the whole matter, not going to bother with anything related to that stuff anymore. go get her two daughters or your other daughter to help. but if this how you express your thanks to people who help you, good luck.

i have 2 pending job offers from korea, and if i do leave it will be some time next year. both parties seem happy with this timeline i have given them, but 5, 6 months is a long time and anything can happen in between (like, i might just get married and migrate to south america or something).

the first one i am not really keen on, although it will be great opportunity for someone more career-minded. great opportunities for growth, potentially huge learning experience, and probably includes business travel as well. sounds fun, but am not sure if i want to lead the life of a workaholic. i still prefer my current slackaholic lifestyle (although for some reason i find myself working six days a week now that i am ‘jobless’.) and the boss seems quite keen to get me onboard – i’d actually indirectly rejected him once, but just a few days ago, he asked me to reconsider.

for the next one month, i will be teaching in the mornings, editing subtitles in the afternoon and teaching again in the evening. of course the money cannot compare to when i had a full-time job, but i am loving every minute of it. given my track record though, i’m just kind of waiting to see when i will get bored of this lifestyle and yearn for a 9-6 again. [damn, what's with my 5-minute attention span?? it's a wonder i managed to sustain my interest in the korean language for 4.5 years.] by that time, i would be ready for korea.

after i left my previous job, i kind of made a promise to myself to never settle. i have learnt my lesson, and i never again want to find myself in a situation where i hate my job. to top it all off, the money wasn’t even good. (though i might consider selling myself for a million bucks. a month, that is. hm. might also consider settling for the president of singapore, but unfortunately my father is not a Tan. my mum is though, does that count?)

the second offer came very very unexpectedly, exactly one day after i got slighted for “not wanting to help”. it’s funny; every time i think of leaving singapore, an offer from korea pops into sight. this time, i was offered the position of “linguistic technical editor”.

another reason i think the first one might not be suitable is that it is a very traditional korean company, and i am not sure i won’t be stifled by the formalities that i may have to observe. i love my freedom too much, and will already be giving up a huge part of it by taking up a regular job. add to that some unyielding customs and i might just kill myself from frustration. the second company seems to have a more “international” staff and culture, so it might be quite ok.

anyway, all these are just my assumptions. i will still have to visit both offices personally before i can make a proper decision. and this can only happen on my planned once-a-year visit to korea next year, since i’ve already been there this year.

i may end up rejecting both, after all, if they don’t feel right.

but still, exciting times.

i am kind of missing the freedom and excitement of living overseas (although this time i will be in familiar territory so maybe it won’t be as exciting as the previous time).